| The closer it gets...the wonderful unforgettable times...the talks..the looks...the more its becoming...the harder its getting to bare. I love you. So much more than I ever thought I could...please don't let this be a dream. I want you, only you. No one else. Ever. No one in this world could compare. |
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| Trying to think of one word to describe her...or even this situation is impossible.
She makes me weak. She makes me happier than I ever thought possible. Her kiss sends chills down my spine. She has me wrapped around her finger everytime she smiles. Not knowing when i'll see her or when i'll hear from her leaves me feeling empty and alone. I wish that when I held her I could stop time. Any worry, any doubt, anything..it all goes away when she's holding me. When we're together everything is just right. Everything makes sense. The little things she does keeps me hopeful. The daisy in my window...the note in my car...the random texts "this reminded me of you..." just to know that she's thinking about me makes me happier than she will probably ever know. Everything about her is so beautiful...except for one thing. The one thing that stands in between the two of us. I would do anything I could to get rid of it. Thats not what she wants though. She doesn't know what she wants. She knows..but being pulled in two different directions is hard I know. I just hate not being able to do anything. Just sitting by...watching her get hurt time and time again. Its horrible. Such a wonderful person getting treated their nothing. How do you make a person realize they're wasting their time? As happy as I am, I am also so lost at how I should feel. All I know is, she is all I want. I've never wanted anyone or anything more in my life. She's given me the craziest feelings I've never had. Just wish I could call her mine... |
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| Last night I ended it with him. I know I've needed to be alone for a while. Just to be me and not worry about what someone else is doing or if someone else will be okay with it. I feel like there's a lot I need to learn about myself before I can be in a relationship again. Its so nice to think I'm not tied down to anyone. I don't feel like someone's property. I feel like myself. I feel like I am my own person and it feels wonderful. *Sunflower |
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